Last Night Was a Fairy Tale =D

Hye korg2… Today was a fairy tale… hahaha… im hapy banget2 skg ni.. erm, bkn skg ni la, mlm td actly…

Haha cube teka..

Ape?

Ape?

Ape?

Hehehehe Bkn nk berbangge la..tp aku mmg STALKER yg berjaya… bkn ape, mlm td tetbe je aku terbukak page si dia..hehehe.. klau sblm ni, ble aku bkak page dia, msti sdeh2 n geram2 je..tp mlm td, hihihi..aku senyum jek..mula2 terkejut + x cye..tp pastu, aku happy sgt2… tgk cm profile dia bersih dr sebarang cela.. *cela kt mate aku la No more gmbr that girl..hahahaha sy hapy…

belek punye belek..dr 1 gmbr ke 1 gmbr.. *Ting* kua mentol..nmpk x?? haha terpikir lak aku, dia da xde pape ke ngn that girl?? Hehe Kalau la mmg da x de, wah…Aku la org paling happy… Jahat kn aku??? Bkn cm 2 la sbnrnye… aku x la jht sgt…tp x byk, sikit 2 ade la happynye sbb dia single..n aku pon single.. haha nmpk sgt harap lg kt dia 2…

Sebenarnye kn, aku bru tersedar 1 sifat x elok dlm dri aku ni.. sblm ni aku x sdar sifat 2 ade dlm dri aku… tp sifat 2 sgt kuat ble ia berkaitan ngn hati especially ble aku d kecewakan… cube teka ape bnda??

Sensitive?

2 mmg slalu ade…

Tabah??

Haha lau aku tabah, x la aku nanges ble taw dia in a relationship dlu 2…

ok2..sifat yg aku bru perasan 2 ialah, x lain x bukan..

DENDAM

seriously aku baru perasan sifat 2… how bad I am rite?? Tp x la dendam sgt… sikit jek… bile dia da dpt blsnnye, aku akn ok la…hehe Cm skg ni, aku da x dendam la.. sbb si dia da clash ngn gadis 2..agknye la kn… tp x ksah la… yg pnting, page dia 2, kt album si dia 2, mmg da xde gmbr2 org lain selain dia… hehehehe.. puas ati saya.. *SMILE

Fuhh!! Lega la aku… Lalalalalala =D Iam sooooo happy rite now… rse cm nk lompat je… weeehooooo!!!! Itu je la psl n3 kali ni… Eh3.. de lg 1… Jumaat ni bersamaan 10 dec 2010 ktorg student UiTM akn taw result exam…huhh gile nervous.. Tp da wt yg the best.. so, redha je la..ye dak?? Wish Me Luck ye kwn2… Bye2 Salam.. =D

Aku Kne Tag La Pulak

Hai2 korang2 sume...lame aku update blog ni..bukan ape, aku xde bnda2 mnarik yg nk d abadikan dlm ni..huhu..Baru2 ni buka, tetbe kne tag plak...1st time ni kne tag...aku x reti bnda2 ni sebenarnye..kne blaja dr yg lbih tawu ni...huhuhu..pape pon, da kne tag kn..1st time plak 2, so, wt la bnda alah ni...huhuhu..excited plak tetbe...


my personality:

• i’m loud.
•i’m obnoxious.
•i’m sarcastic.
•i’m cocky.
•i cry easily.
•i have a bad temper.
•for the most part i don’t like people.
•i’m easy to get along with.
•i have more enemies than friends.
•i’ve smoked.
•i’ve smoked weed.
•i drink coffee.
•i clean my room daily.




my appearance:

• i wear makeup.
•i wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
•i wear contacts.
•i wear glasses.
•i have braces.
•i change my hair colour often
•i straighten my hair often
•i have a piercing
•i have small feet




relationships:

•i’m in a relationship now.
•i’m single.
•i’m crushin’.
•i’m in love.
•i’m always scared of being hurt.
•an ex has physically abused me at least once.
•i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.
•i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.
•i’ve been in love more than two times.
•i believe in love at first sight.
•i believe lust is more important than love.




friendships:

• i have a best friend.
•i have at least ten friends.
•i’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
•i’ve beaten up a friend.
•i’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
•i can trust at least five people with my life.




experiences:

•i’ve been on a plane.
•i’ve been on a train.
•someone close to me has died.
•i’ve taken a taxi.
•i’ve taken a city bus.
•i’ve taken a school bus.
•i’ve gone bungee jumping.
•i’ve made a speech.
•i’ve been in some sort of club.
•i’ve won an award.
•i’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
•i’ve been in a physical fight




music:

• i listen to rnb
•i listen to country.
•i listen to pop.
•i listen to techno.
•i listen to rock.
•i’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until i hate it.
•i hate the radio.
•i download music.
•i buy cd’s.




television:

•i spend at least six hours a day watching television.
•i watch soap operas daily.
•i’m in love with days of our lives.
•i’ve seen and liked the o.c.
•i’ve seen and liked one tree hill.
•i’ve seen and like americas next top model.
•i’ve seen and like popular.
•i’ve seen and like 24.
•i’ve seen and liked csi.
•i’ve seen and like everwood.




family life:

•i get along with both of my parents.
•my biological parents are still together.
•i have at least one brother.
•i have at least one sister.
•i have at least one step brother/sister.
•i have at least one half brother/sister.
•i’ve been kicked out of the house.
•i’ve ran away from my home.
•i’ve sworn at my parents.
•i’ve made my parents cry.
•i’ve lied to my parents.
•i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.
•i’ve lied to my parents about what i’m doing.
•i’ve lied to my parents so i’d be allowed out
.•i’ve walked out when i’ve been grounded.




hair:

• i’ve been brown.
•i’ve had streaks.
•i’ve cut my hair in the past year.
•i’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
•i’ve been blonde.
•i’ve had black.
•i’ve been red.
•i’ve been light brown.
•i’ve been medium brown.
•i’ve been blue/green.
•i’ve gotten my hair thinned.
•i use conditioner.
•i’ve used silk therapy.
•i’ve used hot oil treatments.
•i’ve curled my hair.
•i’ve straightened my hair.
•i’ve ironed my hair.
•i’ve braided my hair.




school:

•i’ve yelled at a teacher.
•i’ve been suspended.
•i’ve had an in-school suspension.
•i’ve been sent to the principals office.
•i’ve walked out of class.
•i’ve skipped an entire day of school.
•i’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
•i’ve failed a test.
•i’ve cheated on a test.
•i’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
•i’ve failed art.
•i’ve failed p.e.
•i’ve failed math.
•i’ve failed science.
•i’ve failed another class.
•a teacher has called my parents

Okeh...da siap jawab daa...aku jwb ngn jujur taw...huhuhu...sape2 yg nk jwb gak bnda2 ni, sila2 la ea...aku x reti nk tag2 org kt blog ni...huhu..so, silakan ye...

Why I Can't Forget You????

~ 2008 ~

Baru je menamatkan zaman2 sekolah menengah...tgu offer ke u or matrik... Aku mmg x harapkan form 6...aku x nk msuk form 6... aku x nk pkai bju sekola lg... aku da puas pkai bju sekola...lame kot... malangnye, ms result pggilan mtrik n u, aku x dpt pon... sedih sgt2... sbb aku rse result aku ok je... lpasla lau nk msuk mtrik.. knp aku x dpt?? nk x nk terpaksa amek form 6 gak... tp, nseb aku baek... aku dpt second intake tuk matrik... bahagianye... seminggu 2 mmg minggu yg bz tuk aku...kne setelkan sume form2 sume... aku x ingt tarikh, tp aku n fmily gerak dr selangor ke utara tnh air..subuh2 ktorg da smpai... g ke matrik 2... "Sini la tmpt aku blaja nti" aku ckp dlm ati... *senyum*

Esoknye bermula la ari2 aku kt matrik 2... seronok..membe2 ok... surrounding ok.. everything is ok...hmm, ade 1 x ok... jauh... sgt2 jauh from fmily... sepanjang idop, ni la tmpat pling jauh yg aku pegi.. Sendiri... without fmly... nsib ade membe2 yg slalu support... so, not a big deal 4 me... aku x ksah duk sorg.. aku bole berdikari... enough wit that... 2 bkn pe yg aku nk cte... sekadar poembuka bicara kpd crite yg sbnr... ok... sem 1 d mtrik x bpe enjoy sbb bru knl2 kn..so, x bpe rapat..All my sweet memory terjadi ms hujung sem 1... ms 2 la aku knl ngn sumone... yes... haha... teenagers.. normal la kn...n ktorg pon berkenalan through my friend... da knl, so, ktorg jmp la... somewhere kt utara 2... *tmpat terpaksa d rahsiakn k Actly ktorg x la terus kan ke perhubungn ke yg lebih serius... mmg niat 2 ade... tp ade krisis ms 2... n aku pon jauh... aku x bpe berani nk amek risiko... so, ktorg terputus cm 2 je... sdih mmg sdih... tp 2 pilihan dia.. aku hormati keputusan dia sbb 2 berkaitan ngn kehidupan slps mati.. xpe... so, terputus la perhubungn ktorg.....

~ 2009 ~

Tahun ni berlalu cm 2 je...without any news bout him... ade la aku korek2 sket dr member aku 2... dia tga blja under SPA... everytime aku ty membe aku 2, msti si dia tga praktikal... x pela... n in my mind, dia msti da ade yg punye... msti la kn... kwn aku pon ade bg2 hint psal dia da ade gf... *Hello!!do i care??? Malangnye.. "Yes!! I do care if dia da ade gf" i just can't accept..sbb dlu dia bg aku excuse yg x memungkinkan dia cple before marriage... such a jerk kn.. haaaa,,mula la aku nk mencarut ni....

~ 2010 ~

Taon ni aku still wit my activity.. korek cte sal si dia through my friend 2.. n dgn baek hatinye dia gtaw fb si dia... *Happynyer Tp its not like what i expected... 1st bnda yg aku tgk is relationship dia...n ternyata, in relationship... masa tgk 2, aku rase cm ati aku ni lruh..hncur sehancurnye... sedih + geram... n smpai skg aku msih stalk dia... *jahat kn??? i just can't forget him..but why???? aku nk lupakan dia... nk sgt.. but i can't... ssh sangat,... i need sumone yg bole buat aku lupe t dia... 4 the time being, kwn2 aku la yg bole wt aku lupe dia.. 2 pon kjap je...

Sooo korng...aku perlukan pandangan or advice or anything yg aku kne buat tuk lupe kan dia.. plz...really need korg pnye advice or cadangan..aku x sgup da ni ingt hak org...dia xkn jd milik aku... Really really need pndang n advice dr korg.. Thanks...

Tersenyum pula...

Warrrghhhhhh [menjerit ngan pnuh kegembiraan]... Aku sgt hapy la plak ari ni kn...hahahah... knp ?? sbb aku gembira la...hahahaha.. hy org2 tertentu je taw npe aku hapy ari ni...rase cm nk snyum sampai kepala....hahahahha... oke... aku nk share 2 je sbnrnyer....



SAYA SANGAT GEMBIRA HARI NI....


TQ AWK!!!

Kecewa Lagi

Hye korang...masuk kali ni x taw la dah bape kali aku kecewa...salah aku jugak kot sbb terlalu cepat percaye pada cte org...tp gaye dia bercerita meyakinkan aku yg dia 2 ade some heart feeling... npe la aku senang sgt caye and terpedaya ngan cte org..grr.. oke, aku nk start cte ni.. bia la aku namekan dorg ni ngn A and C.. A is membe aku... C pulak is someone 2...

Cte nye cmni...one day 2, aku chat ngn A thru fb... mula2 aku pelik jgk kn sbb dia tetbe chat ngn aku... sblm2 ni ktorg comment2 je kt fb 2... tp ari 2, dia chat plak... xpe la.. borak2 cm biase..smpai la 1 part 2, terkeluar cte aku ngn C... ms 2, da start pelik r.. npe nk kaitkan aku wit C plak kn... aku x expect la yg A nk cte n nk ty sal aku ngn C 2... ade ke dia kate aku ade scandal wit C.. x patot gler.. C 2 kwn aku ms dlu2 la... ktorg kwn je.. but, the way C treat aku, mmg kdg2 2 tergelincir gak la kn... da aku ni pon jnis yg cpt nk feeling2 nih...haih..ssh btol...

Ms chat2 2, aku ty la A cne n knp dia kaitkan aku ngn C..n y dia ckp aku de scandal wit him...?? A cte la.. dia jmp C ari 2... then cte sal kwn ktorg... tetbe mncul cte sal ktorg... aku ckp la... pe kaitan cte ktorg with scandal pnye story 2... ktorg x wt pape pon..huhu.. n A pon cte n cte n cte.. bru la aku dpt detect.. rsenyer psal comment2 ktorg ari 2... ape la...Hello Mr. C, 2 pon nk cte kt org ke?? small matter je kot.. kn da jd cte cmni... ape la...

Dr cte A, ms C cte sal our story 2, dia blush!! OMG!! C, u r blushing bcoz dat comment2??? ini sgt2 x d sangka la kn.. aku x sangka la dia nk blushing time cte sal our story 2..haih... ape la C ni..padan la A kate kte ni scandal... then satu ms 2, aku chat ngn dia... borak2 biase... yg mngelirukan aku skg ni, dia mkin kerap gnekan kata 1 kata gnti ni... bg aku pgilan 2 sgt2 la pnting n akn d guna utk org yg btol2 special je... so, persoalannye skg.. aku ni special ke kt dia??? hahaha.. hapy la skjap kn...

Smpai la mlm ni, ble aku on blik fb... 1 bnda yg x d sangke la... cbe teka... ble aku bkak fb... mcm biase check wall.. n aku ternampak nme dia.. excited skjp.. haha... aku nmpk bnda ni.. C is in a relationship... hah??? btol ke??? pas aku tgk byk2 kali.. mmg terbukti la bnda 2... WTH kn...eeeii, i tot C btol2 la kn ble dia call me ngn dat pggilan... tp rupe2 nye mainan belaka... hish..nseb bek x tergelincir trukk...

Wahai kaum Adam, d sni aku nk pesan sket ye...plz la jgn nk gne or pgil org ngn pgilan2 yg special pd org yg x sepatutnyer.. korg cuma akn mnyakitkan ati org 2 ble dia find out yg korg x ske dia pon... got it... plz laaaa... hmmm, konklusinya d sni..aku nk gtaw yg aku sdeh sket n kecewa byk...waaaa.. tp x pe, mgkin ade hkmah d sebaliknyer..waaa...byk sgt halangn n dugaan aku dlm hal yg 1 nih..ape bole wt kn...huhuhu...

bile boring + da ckup stdy

Ini la jadinye ble masing2 da fed up nk stdy.. knp fed up???mne x nye..lau da puas bce tp still x lekat kt pale...msti la fed up kn...haha..so, konklusinye, tutup buku n tutup mate..wah, solution yg sgt bernas kn..hahaha..nk d jadikan cerite, mate da ngntuk pon, tp tbe2 bole plak timbul 1 persoalan kpd 1 faktor ni.. Faktor apakah??? yeee..ape lagi kalau bkn faktor hati n perasaan.. atau dlm kate lain CINTA.. hahaha.. Ahli panel yg terlibat sumenyer single2 belaka..tp ade yg x available sbb hati dia da ditakluki org somebody..hahhaa..

Dlm discussion ktorg ni, byk la plak persoalan yang muncul..salah satu nye, tahap kebutaan dlm cinta..sbnrnyer, kte yg buta atau cinta 2 yg buta..??sah2 la cinta 2 buta sbb cnta xde mata..huhu..ok, not funny... aku rse la manusia ni yg buta, bukan cnta..sbb ble kte suka n cnta kt org 2, kta akn wt ape je..even bnda 2 akan mnyusahkan kte.. *based on own experienced x cye??cbe try..even kte akn deny statement 2, once kte dah in love wit someone, statement 2 da jd slh... statement yg btol is manusia d butakan oleh cnta..haha..

Persoalan kedua is knp org yg kita suka @ cnta 2 x nmpk perasaan kte yg sbnar kt dia.. ni utk org yg suka dlm diam.. kira cm secret admirer la.. Samada, org 2 yg x perasan atau wt2 x perasan kte x taw.. tp kdg, kte da tnjuk yg kte ni ade heart feeling kt dia, dia bole wt donno je.. apakah?? x kn x perasan kot.. or hint yg d bg x ckup kuat.. hello?? xkn nk suh ngaku dpn2 kot.. malu la.. especially lau kne reject.. mne nk taruk muke?? so, kte yg x ckup bg hint atau org yg kte suke 2 yg x perasan feeling kite kt dia?? atau dia 2 xde perasaan??

Persoalan ketiga is knp org suka bg harapan?? ini x kire llaki or pmpuan ea.. sume aku rse suka bg hrpn. tp sbb aku pmpuan, so aku akn ckp, llaki yg slalu bg hrpn kt pmpuan.. guys, the u all treat pmpuan akn wt pmpuan slh fhm ok..so, jge la and bataskan layanan korg kt pmpuan ni.. jgn la over sgt smpai pmpuan perasan yg kamu suke kt dia.. ble jd cmni, akn ade ati yg terluka..spe lg lau bkn ati pmpuan 2 kn..

So far, 2 je yg ktorg bncang kan...hal2 kcik aku x state la kt sni..pnt da tekan keyboard ni.. lau ade sebarang comment, sila2 la bg comment anda..huhu.. jmp lg kt nxt n3 nti yea..bye..

exam mood + frustration

hye hye..bye bye.. akhirnya ms aku berteka-teki da tamat...selama ni aku duk beteka-teki la kn status dia...cm da d miliki, tp x sure kn..so, aku ckp la kt diri aku yg dia 2 xde ape2 ngn sape2..nk sedapkan ati la knonnyer... n today is the day yg aku taw the truth...wah..mmg best kn??? waaaaa...menangis d dlm ati...hahahaha...actly, aku da taw da yg dia 2 ade yg pnye, tp x sure kn..so, 2 yg wt2 cm dia xde ape2 ngn org 2...pastu td, tetbe ade lak org ckp sal dia...so da sure da yg mmg dia ade ape2 ngn that bdk..sdeh jek..huaaaa..membe aku kate, aku lmbt bertindak...bkn lmbt la kwn..aku kne la pkir2 dlu..x kn nk maen sambar jek...tp xpe la kn..ade la 2 hikmahnye..haaaiiii, x 1 1 la brite sdeh yg aku taw time2 cmni... byk btol problema time exam2 cmni kn...dugaan btolla... pape pon doakan je la yg dia bahagia ngn pilihan dia..SEMOGA BERBAHAGIA KAWAN...da jd kekasih yg x kesampaian da..masuk dia ni, da 2 org...ape la nseb ea..sbr je la...huh..tp tetap sdeh..sakit ati pon iye gak..tp saket ati ms taw brite dia ni, x cm sakit ati ms aku taw brte sal JACK dlu...yg 2 sakit ati thap dewa 2..dia ckp x srupa bikin... mmg mngundang kemarahan la kn...hello, lau ko xnk kau, aku sejuta million kali xnk kau la...pdn mke dpt awek x comey..comey lg aku...hahahha...perasannye saye..tp mmg btol pon...hmmm, aku syg dia sbnrnyer...waaa..knyataan yg x pnh aku ckp kt sape2...spe yg bce n3 ni diam2 ea...jgn gtaw spe2..hahahaha...haaa, ni ade lg 1 mslh...wt aku dlm dilema btolla mamat sorg ni..tp mybe perasaan aku je kot...hahahha...oke, mls cte sal dia..hihihi...yg penting, arini aku sakit ati sgt2 ble dpt taw sal mamat td 2...sdeh weh...huuuuu...sakit ati sgt2...lg2 bce comment2 dorg..eeeiii...cm ngade2 gle...hahah..oke, 2 ayt org sakit ati...hahahhaha...k la...da pnt mengarang..nk smbg stdy...c u ol nxt n3 yea...

Indah~~

Indahnye rse ble d sayangi kn...hahaha..[pe motif aku ckp ni]..
ok cmni..staright 2 the point je.. p/s kpd org 2....plz plz plz, jgn bg hrpn kt sy...
lau x jd t hati teluka..hati spe??hati sy...
jgn ckp cmni "spe sruh letak hrpn tgi2..?" hbis nk wt cne...da sy ni mmg jns yg cpt bg hrpn...
soooooo, jgn la wt cm 2 lg ye... t sy truk hrpn lg tgi...
t sy yg sakit ati..sy yg tggung akibatnye..knp la awk x leh nk phm sy...??

Ble sy kate awk cm 2, awk x nk ngaku...[mmg la sy ty dlm maen2 kn] n awk slalu deny bnda 2..lg la sy truk hrpn...t lau sah bnda 2 salah, sy nyanyi lgu fazly zainal 2...
sdeh taw...lau ikut kn, mls da nk pkir psl bnda ni...
tp ati mnusia..nk rse sume bnda2 ni...haish...ssh la..tlg la kuat wahai ati..
jgn jatuh sblm tiba ms...kau cri la yg btol2 dlu...pastu nk jtuh tegolek mnyembah bumi pon xpe..
hahahaha..ayt gle skema.. [p/s ath, lau ko bce post ni, jgn gelak ye]..
ath slalu kritik aku ble aku post n3..ade ke ptot kate aku gne ayt A++..2 perli nmenye syg..

Okeh, back 2 the story...x d nafikan, mmg sikit byk 2 ade gak rse suka 2 dtg dlm ati..
tp, x nk harap tgi2 la kn..cm yg sy ckp kt ats td 2...
t lau x btol, ati ni gak yg teluka..ati ni gak yg kecewa..ckup la dlu2 2..
da pnt nk tempohi...ati ni mkin lme mkin nipis...hahaha
dia cm kapas da..rse cm lg lmut dr kapas..sng je org nk msuk skg ni...
so, plz plz plz lg skali...jgn la bg hrpn...jgn la wt cm 2 kt sy...
ksian sy t..awk x ksian ke???huhuhu..

Oke la...mate pon da x larat nk bukak ni...c u nxt n3..daaaaa..salam...

tension week~~

okeh..1st of all, aku nk isytiharkan bhawasanye mgu ni ialah mgu tension.. knp aku nme kn mgu ni mgu tension?nk taw? okeh, aku senaraikan kt bwh ye..sila bace..

1. asgment hrm and individual
2. report ecom and blog
3. viva and presentation mr
4. presentation ecom
5. asgment mr
6. test product
7. video mandarin

hmm..2 je la rasenyer...tension ke x???mstila tension.. in a week kne wt 7 asgment2 2..gle!! bole sewel aku d wt nyer..haish.. tp aku still d sni..sihat walafiat..lom sewel lg..haha.. aku bole go trough ni sume..hebat gak aku ni kn..hehehe...skg ni almost done with all the asgment..tgal asgment mr 2 je..mne la aku nk cri jwpn...korg2@my classmate..xnk bg aku pnjm jwpn korg ke??? :( aku da x taw nk jwb cne..sdeh btol..lastly aku rse lau aku x dpt gak jwpn, mau aku anta cm 2 je..byk rompong2..haha..next week de test hrm..1 je kot nxt week..haha..pastu nk exam da..huuuu..cuaknyer...ape pon x prepare..wah,,sy mmg student yg baik kn..baikla sgt..ms stdy nti tgu je la, gelabah beruk aku..haish..k la...da x taw nk merepek ape coz sume idea da d curik ms aku wt mr td..wakakakka..bye2 la ye sume..

kata hati

Setelah sekian lama x post any n3, aku kembali..haha..ptg2 jumaat ni sepatutnyer x yh la de klas kn..tp nk wt cne, spe nth yg baik ati sgt bg aku klas ptg..nvermind la, tuk ms dpn aku gak..ok..aku g..pkul 5 bru abes klas..tgu bas + jammed smpai umh dlm kul 6.30 pm..lme x??lme kn...huh..tension + bdn yg pnt mmg memerlukan rehat..tp aku nk on fb..so, on la fb nih..tga duk tgk2 post2 membe2, tetbe tenampak post sorg ni..hmm, xde pe yg plik la kn...mmg la org akn post actvt dorg dlm fb 2 even g mndi pon...yg peliknyer, pas aku bce post dia, aku jd x sdp ati lak..bkn x sdp ati sbb smting bad 2, tp x sdp ati sbb rse sakit cne nth...haiiyooo!!!! amma, appa ape 2?? i have nothing to do with him la...x pnh ade rse syg pape pon...syg as fren la ofkos..tetbe nk rse2 cmni...pa dia...aku rse bkn sbb aku bce post dia kot..maybe de bnda lain la 2...haha..menyedapkan ati sbnrnye..tp, sumpah aku x pnh suka dia..aku suke kt org lain..hahaha..gatainyer izzaty..keh3..

Tp kn korg..btol..aku rse sayu je tbe2 ptg ni..cuaca pon cm phm2 je..cuace ptg ni sjuk2 + mendung2, wt aku lg sayu...waaa...sdeh x korg??sdeh kn..hahaha...izzaty suda gilak!! hmm, lately ni ble on fb je, tgk gmbr org kawen...jelesnyer.. ble nth nk kawen nih...hahahha..suda2 la merepek...da la..nk smbg berfacebooking..haha

Lately ni gak...rmai la plak yg nk ngade2 ngn aku..dlu2 x nk plak...yg sorg 2 kjp ilang.kjap ade..chipsmore pon x mcm dia...yg lg sorg, ckp cm ape je...aku taw, sume 2 hy mainan kate dorg..tp x taw la lau btol kn..hihihi...dorg pun 1, lau suke 2 ckp jela...bak kate membe aku, lau dia ckp, xde nye aku nk reject..ngeh3...

Dala, sekian terima kasih...jmp d nxt n3..

p/s : awak, lau suke katakan suke..

Persoalannye skg....

Adakah dia suke???suke ape???suke ****...hahaha..wondering wondering n wondering...sumtimes dia tnjuk reaksi yg positive..n sumtimes natural..sumtimes negatives..so, cne nk taw??aku pon x taw..hahaha...layan jela..yg pnting hapy...ari ni 2 sept 2010, berakhirla BIID..lega..product ktorg jd knyataan..ngeh3..wlaupon x mng..tp ok la kn..x sgke leh jd kn realiti dat kasut..huhu..gmbr2 tuk BIID akn d upload kemudian yea...skg gmbr xde kt aku..mybe esok@jumaat@3 sept aku blik umh..seminggu lg mau raye...huhuhu..x sdr pon ramadhan bkal berlalu..syawal bakal menjelma..hiihi..ape2 pon..selamat ari raye ye..maaf zahir n batin...nxt n3 akn upload gmbr2 BIID..ciao..

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hancur hatiku,mngenang dikau
menjadi keping2 stlah kau pergi

oke..itu ialah kata2 hikmah tuk ari ni yea kwn2..x de pekataan lain yg lbih sesuai, melainkan HANCUR..da xde pape yg tgal da..sume habis..aku da buang semuanya..semua rse yang aku pnh rse terhadap dia..(sory ye..hari ni aku gune bhsa baku)..aku da xnk smpan ape2 perasaan lagi..aku da pnt..pnt yang teramat..ckup la yang ini jd yang terakhir buat aku...lepas ni, harapnye yang dtg 2 ialah yang kekal d sisi aku..yang slalu ade waktu aku ssh n sng..

Knp A perlu bgtaw aku fb dia..??knp n knp? knp aku perlu jmp fb dia..lau aku taw la ni yg aku jmp..sumpah, aku xkn cari..tp lau aku x jmp msti aku trus smpan hrpn kn..A...kau sbg kwn aku, npe kau x gtaw yg sbnrnye..supaya aku x smpan hrpn..knp kau msti nk gtaw ngn cre ni..aku lg rela dgr dr mulut kau..aku lg rela kau yg gtaw drpd aku taw sndiri cmni...mmg mulut kate cm aku da x smpn ape2 feeling kt dia..tp hati ni tuhan je yg taw..aku sdih taw A..sikit sebanyak aku kcewa gak..npe kau x gtaw aku..?aku taw la JACK 2 kwn kau gak..hmm, sdih sgt2..nseb aku da kot..bia la..mgkin aku akn jmp yg lg baik..

Kwn2 yg lain..d harap lau ade pape korg inform je..gtaw je aku..aku xnk taw sndri cmni..sakit ati tuhan je yg taw,..mcm d siat2..skrg ni, aku rse cm da mls..mls nk mengharap..mls nk mencari..pengalaman lalu mengajar aku..byk ajar aku supaya x mengharap lg..supaya membekukan hati aku ni..tapi ape daya..aku ni pompuan yang berjiwa selembut sutera sbnrnya..wlaupun luaran aku nmpk mcm gila2 knonnyer..dlm hati hanya tuhan je yang taw...

bagi yg bru dgr cte antara aku n JACK, mungkin dorg akan terfikir atau terdetik kt ati dorg "eh, over gle minah ni...bkn pnh ade pape pon ngn mamat 2"..mgkin 2 la yg dorg akn ckp..tp dorg x taw..betapa terkilannye aku..dorg x taw perasaan sbnr aku..lps dpt taw bnda 2, aku rse sgt2 tersentap..sgt2..ms dgn W dulu pon x cmni..mgkin sbb perasaan terkilan n harapan yg aku taruk ats dia terlalu tgi..2 yg impak bsr sgt 2...

pape pon..aku kne byk sbr..sbr je yg mampu aku buat..x kn aku nk pkse org suke kt aku kn...melampau la 2..semoga 1 hari ade org yg bole memberi kebahagiaan kpd aku..untuk selamanya..AMIN~~

sepetang d PJ Hilton

aku rindu kasih dan sayangmu....

sabtu, 4 p.m till 7 p.m, PJ hilton

setelah semalaman memikir nk pakai bju pe tuk event ni, akhirnye aku plih je bju kurung..bju yg pling slmt skali tuk event cm 2..klas aku BM220 3A, 3B n 3L kne pegi sne tuk atend book launching..so, dgn separuh ati aku pon bersiap2 la pkul 1.45 sbb kne bekumpul kt HEP kul 2.45 p.m..siap pnye siap x sdr da dkt 2.40 da..x kua g..sah telambat..

da smpai dlm u ni, pusing pnye pusing x dpt parking plak..tepakse la park kt perindu..otw ke HEP nmpk plak bs lalu..cm knl je bebudak dlm 2..ops!clasmate aku...waaaaa, tetinggal bas la plak..adeh..da gelabah beruk ni...ty my class rep, dia suh join dak2 3B..nseb bek dorg lum grk..so, ktorg naek la ngn dak 3B..

smpai sne dlm kul 3 lbih kot...trus msuk ballroom..da sdp2 duduk tetbe kne pgil ngn class rep lak..kne incharge rgsteration..so, g je la kn..duduk je pon suh org yg dtg 2 signs..sbb terlalu baik hati volunteer nk incharge rgstration, last2 ktorg kne duk kt lua sbb dlm da full..hmm, punah hrpn aku nk tgk bebudak kcik 2 menari..

tp..redha je la kn..mybe ade hkmah kne duk kt lua,..x lme pastu, mjlis pon mula...ktorg duk begosip kt lua ni ha...hahaha..bkn dgr pon..then tetbe nmpk K kua..wt pe lak dia ni kt lua..owww, dia jwb fon rupenyer..then dia msuk blik...few mnit pas 2, kua blik..jwb kol gak 2..then dia trun bwh..hmm, xpe la kn...pastu smbg la borak2...then malin & yanie g toilet...tgalla aku n ath..da x taw nk wt pe da..tetbe ath sengih2 lak...cak..haha.. K tetbe duk sblh ath..start la 2...

borak pnye borak..dtg si malin & yanie da kua toilet..dr jauh da sengih2..abis la aku..da nmpk aura2 nk knekn aku 2..dtg2 je trus nk tarik ath g ngn dorg..knon2 nk tgalkn aku n K la 2..jaat taw dorg...malu aku...sje je...lme2 jd cm kecoh skit...K suh behave la korg...haaa, kn da kne tgur...hahaha...snyap la pastu..2 pon duh sengih2..pastu si K ni tetbe plak nk ty sal asgmnet..mne de la..sje je...mkin galak la dorg mngusik aku..haih..dkt nk abis mjlis, K msuk dlm blik..huh!!lega aku..

abis mjlis is mkn time...hahaha..msukla dwan 2..wahhh..full gle..so, ktorg amek desert je la..x sgup aku nk que pnjg2..da amek mknn 2, nk cri meja lak..adeh..mne nk jmp..?xde lnsg yg kosong..tgh2 bediri 2, tetbe de auty tgur...dia suh mkn kt tepi 2..mkn bediri..???alaaa..sgannyer..tp nk wt cne..hmmm...ms 2, yani n ath g que nk amek mknn..ktorg mkn je la smbil bediri..malu2..tp tgk rmai je yg wt..so, wt bodo je la..da hbis mkn2 2, de la sorg pelayan ni amek pggan yg da x gne..nme dia S kot..nk taw x, mke dia exactly cm JACK...huh..terimbau segalenye secare tetbe..huhuhu..byk kali gak la dia lalu lalang..ye la, kje kn...hmmm, sdih je ble tekenang blik...men intai2 je la yg mampu..

pas mkn 2, ktorg snap2 picxa...hahaha..acare wajib 2..then trus naek bs..blik ke shah alam...dr dlm bs smpai skg still x leh lupe that mamat...huhuhu...sdeh je ble knangkn blik...tp hidup msti d truskn kn...mybe de org lain yg tgu...dia bkn tuk aku..sekian~~

jumaat yang indah n mnyakitkan ati....

salam...pas lbih kurg sebulan menjalani sem baru kt uitm 2, ni la 1st time blik umah...ouh..rndu gle ngn fmily, katil n my lulu....hahaha..lulu is so cute taw...smpai rumah around 9 cm 2 la...jammed truk kt shah alam...bnjir kot...kete jln cm kura2...kura2 lg cpt la sbnrnye..huhu..

smpai je umh trus mndi n mkn..lapar taw...then,kms2 sket....lpas kmas..mula la jlnkan aktivity harian which is on9..huhhu..f d hatiku...smbil2 fb 2 on la jgk ym....chat ngn ath n shila...tgh2 syok chat n blas2 cment kt fb..pap!! tetbe dat mamat yg da lme gle lost cntact on9...scare automatiknye aku rse bedebar2..hakhakhak...ayt x bole blah kn...bkn la..yela...da lme kot x cntct..msti r rse lain..plus dlu mmg ade heart feelings ngn dia 2...then....aku ni ngn ati yg dup dap, ty la membe2 wht should i do..???dorg suh aku chat ngn dia,..tpaku cuak kot...hahahah...ngn rse ati yg bedegup2..aku pon buzz dia..dia buzz aku blik...n..aku ty la..spe ni..??knon2 lupe la...cbe teka dia jwb pe..dia kte nme dia JACK!!

damn..ble plak dia tkr nme...elo bro..lau da xnk chat 2, ckp je la trus trang..x yh nk tkr2 nme...ingt aku x taw ke..muke kau 2 x pnhnye aku lupe...huh!!sakit ati tol aku...dr mood aku hapy2 sbb dia on9..trus betukar jd mnympah...hei..mnsia ni mmg la...duniawi btol..then aku ty la asal mne..dia x jwb lak..nmpk sgt dia 2 sje je..pe la slhnye ckp nme btol je...x yh la nk selindung2..lau ko x ingin, aku seribu kali x ingin...bole jaln la...plih je nk highway mne..da byk highway da skg nih..sila kn jaln...huh!! nseb la x jmp dia lg..lau x..mmg mntk kaki..rse cm nk sound je dia..tp kne sbr..dia x serang aku, so aku x leh serang dia..kesopanan kne jge..huhu..

sbr zaty..sabar...bia la dia ngn dunia dia..pape pon..aku harap dia bhagia ngn idop dia...gne la nme JACK 2 lau 2 yg bole wt dia hapy..nme 2 jauh gle beza dr nme dia yg btol..adeh..xkn culture shock kot..

p/s : jgn la nk ubh diri semata2 nk kaburi org lain...lau rse2 da xnk cntct ngn org 2, ckp je trus trang..xde la org 2 mngharap..n pliz..jgn la bg hrpn palsu..ksian kt org 2..hh

ketidaksedapan ati....

hmm..sudenly rse x sdp ati lak..
nk blik rr...huuuu...
sgt sedeyh la cm ni...
mish my home...
mish my familia...
mish everything...

kje byk..
tp xde mood nk wt...
arghh!!x ske prasaan cmni..
tnsion2...even bru smlm blik umh..
tp rse cm da lme je x blik..
pe cer..??gilak2...
rse cm da mereng da pale otak ni...

lau dpt kareoke syoknyer..
hahaha..tetbe jew...
sah pale aku da mereng..
huahuahua...

whtever it is..
shoping is de best...
duet xde nk shoping..
mimpi la zaty oiii...
huhuhu..
da la...mkin lme mkin byk aku merapu dlm ni..
ciao...

mgu apakah ini..?

hmm..ksian kt kwn aku dorg 2...
chill ea my fren..
its not the end of ur life..
chill2 kn dri..
t msti okeh..
huhuhu..

aku ni ckp org kn..
but sumtimes aku rse down gler2..
tataw npe..
ble tgk org2 hapy wif their life..
aku rse kekosongn dlm dri aku..
y..?aku sndri x taw..
mybe sbb de yg x cmplete in my life kowt..
arghh...lntak la kn..
membe2 rmai rite..
but its still not same..

kdg2 tringin nk rse blik dat feeling...
tp ble dgr cte2 sdey membe2..
prasaan 2 ilang..
ble sunyi nk plak rse ade org disamping kte..
i mean..de special 1 la kn,.
lau membe mmg la rmai..
but cm yg aku ckp td..
de feeling is not same..

hmm..pale da start bepusing..
pening2...k la..
tetbe je rse nk post n3..
sbb tnsion kowt kn..
k2..smpai sni jew..
daaaa...

ari ahd yg mcm2..

ari ni ari ahd..haha..sume org taw kn arini ari ahd..sbnrnyer x de yg luar biase pown..cm ari ahd biase..juz ni ahd yg petama di sem 2..hoho..td g pas n sacc mall n pkns..x wt pe pown..sebenrnyer kua nk g dplicate knci..tp kaki ni gtl nk g pas n so on..huhu..x pe r..g je r..hehe..maka,terbuangla duet2 aku..hehe..xpe la..sekali skala..bkn slalu kn..huhuhu..2 je aku nk gtaw..n lg 1..td kne angkt gas dr tgkt 1 ke tgkt 4..OMG..can u guys imagine it..sakit urat2 prot aku..hehe...